Friday, September 16, 2011

I'm pretty sure

That the yoga WILL end up killing me. I've been a slacker and just haven't been doing it lately. I'm always "too tired" or the house is "too messy" or something is just "too....". Yeah, it's been like that. So tonight, for some reason, I decided to get off my very round ass and do the yoga. After all, it's only 20 minutes, right?

Let me tell you, it's a damn good thing I don't take a class! The words that I was using definitely wouldn't be encouraged in a classroom where the focus is deep breathing and inner focus! Ah well, it will get easier, I have to assume it will at least.

My weight is staying steady, which is good because it means I'm not gaining anything. It's bad because it means I'm not losing anything. My clothes are still fitting the same, so it's not like I'm gaining any new muscle.

I realized today that I'm an addict. I was out running errands and picking up things. I realized that while Jason has one addiction, I have another. It's laziness, that simple. I love/want/need convenient foods and to put forth as little physical effort as possible. And it will kill me. Hell, it's slowly doing it already. So now I have to look this in the face, the deep ugly face, and change it. Damn, change is hard. Balls ass hard.

I'm going to take it 2 things at a time. One eating thing and one physical thing each.

The eating step will be to eat more fresh (or frozen fresh) fruits and veggies. Adding them in whenever I can. Having a salad or make some fresh juice. Cutting them up and adding them to what I'm already having.

The physical one will be yoga at least 4 nights a week. It's 20 minutes of exercise 4 times a week. It's not limited to 4 nights, it can be more. It's not specific nights, it can go in any order. It's not a specific set of movements or videos, it can be any that I can find to watch and use. It has to be at least 20 minutes and 4 times a week. I can do it in the afternoon while the kids are gone or napping, so it doesn't even have to be at the end of the day.

With these 2 things done regularly for the next month, I'll see what things have changed. If the yoga becomes easier. If I feel healthier because I'm putting better foods in my body. We'll see how it goes. I have to do something to break this addiction. I've always said that I'm not an addict for anything that would kill me, but this is and it needs to change.

I want to say that I'll blog my progress, how I'm feeling and doing. Keep track to help me stay accountable, even if it is only to myself, but I can't guarantee that will happen. It'd be nice, but we'll see how it goes.

Damn, now I'm hungry. Wonder what's in the house to munch on.

Have a nice weekend everyone who is or isn't reading.