tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81122259721244563912024-02-08T15:35:24.924-05:00Serial Mommy's JourneyKeeping track of my Journey.Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-6152510385009874402013-01-17T12:04:00.002-05:002013-01-17T12:04:33.626-05:00Tricking the MindEating healthy is key to good health, that and actually getting of your duff and moving it. Eating healthy isn't so easy though. I mean, we live in a world that bigger is better, except when it comes to your waistline. Eating healthy isn't cheap. It's no wonder that the poor have the highest obesity rates, they can barely afford to feed themselves, let alone feed themselves with healthy food. <br />
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I'm learning that I need to trick the mind into perceiving that I'm getting more food than I am. This allows me to stick with the serving size and still not feel hungry when I'm done eating. This morning for breakfast I had 1 cup of yogurt and 1/2 cup of granola. That is the serving size. By eating it in a much smaller bowl (one of the bowls we use for the twins) it looked like it was a huge amount of food and I am now feeling very full. <br />
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This means I will have to start measuring and weighing my food. First thing that comes to mind is "Well that's a tedious pain in the ass" but I have to acknowledge that being at my current weight and shape is also a tedious pain the ass. <br />
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I'm going to start using one of the kids' plates when I eat. The plate will fill up faster and my mind will go "Whoa, that's a full plate, we are good!" At least I'm hoping that it will help. Serving size and exercise are my biggest hurdles right now. They seem like the logical place to start.<br />
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Wish me luck, I'm going to need it.<br />
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I haven't weighed myself since I went to the doctor last, which was a couple of months ago. I really don't want to step on the scale and see what it says. I try not to become obsessed with a number, but at some point you need to look at that number just to get a reality check of what is, or isn't, going on. Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-10481992816936305902011-12-20T21:09:00.004-05:002011-12-20T21:09:27.518-05:00The Search for Self Worth<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Seems pretty simple right? You tell yourself "I have worth" and there you go, all done. </span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sadly, it doesn't work quite like that. There is so much that is carried over from when you are a child, from the relationships you have as an adult. Jason has a very hard time understanding how it is that I can't see what he sees in me. </span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">He sees an amazing strong loving independent loyal mother and wife. I see a fat lazy slob who can't get her act together. Huge difference, yeah?</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So how do I get to believing all that my husband sees. He's not an idiot, far from it. He's not blind nor oblivious. Obviously he sees some pretty great things about me. Obviously I don't see them.</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So now I try to bring myself around to his way of thinking. To accepting what it is that he sees, what he says, what he feels. To changing my view of myself.</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Shit that's hard. It's so much easier to just stick with what I know, no matter how negative it is. It's not easy to keep reminding myself that those people that brought me down, that I allowed to bring me down (at least the ones while I was an adult and had a say in the matter) are full of shit. That it was easier for them to bring me down than to build themselves up. </span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Here's the thing I've learned. I'd rather be built up. Life in the negative sucks ass. It gives me physical pain. It stresses me out. It turns me into a person that I don't like being, a mean angry person who yells and screams and hurts those around her. That person sucks and I refuse to live like that.</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For so long, with so many people, they saw the negative, the mean, the angry. They have a really hard time believing that I can be anything but that person. That's understandable. I was that person with them. They helped keep me that person. </span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For the next year I'm going to be working on that self worth. That positive loving good person that my husband sees in me. I don't want to be just good enough, I want to be great. After all, everyone needs goals right? This seems like a pretty good one to me.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-58452134132604288942011-09-16T00:10:00.002-04:002011-09-16T00:23:15.000-04:00I'm pretty sure<span class="Apple-style-span" >That the yoga WILL end up killing me. I've been a slacker and just haven't been doing it lately. I'm always "too tired" or the house is "too messy" or something is just "too....". Yeah, it's been like that. So tonight, for some reason, I decided to get off my very round ass and do the yoga. After all, it's only 20 minutes, right?</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >Let me tell you, it's a damn good thing I don't take a class! The words that I was using definitely wouldn't be encouraged in a classroom where the focus is deep breathing and inner focus! Ah well, it will get easier, I have to assume it will at least.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >My weight is staying steady, which is good because it means I'm not gaining anything. It's bad because it means I'm not losing anything. My clothes are still fitting the same, so it's not like I'm gaining any new muscle. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >I realized today that I'm an addict. I was out running errands and picking up things. I realized that while Jason has one addiction, I have another. It's laziness, that simple. I love/want/need convenient foods and to put forth as little physical effort as possible. And it will kill me. Hell, it's slowly doing it already. So now I have to look this in the face, the deep ugly face, and change it. Damn, change is hard. Balls ass hard. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >I'm going to take it 2 things at a time. One eating thing and one physical thing each. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >The eating step will be to eat more fresh (or frozen fresh) fruits and veggies. Adding them in whenever I can. Having a salad or make some fresh juice. Cutting them up and adding them to what I'm already having. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >The physical one will be yoga at least 4 nights a week. It's 20 minutes of exercise 4 times a week. It's not limited to 4 nights, it can be more. It's not specific nights, it can go in any order. It's not a specific set of movements or videos, it can be any that I can find to watch and use. It has to be at least 20 minutes and 4 times a week. I can do it in the afternoon while the kids are gone or napping, so it doesn't even have to be at the end of the day. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >With these 2 things done regularly for the next month, I'll see what things have changed. If the yoga becomes easier. If I feel healthier because I'm putting better foods in my body. We'll see how it goes. I have to do something to break this addiction. I've always said that I'm not an addict for anything that would kill me, but this is and it needs to change.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >I want to say that I'll blog my progress, how I'm feeling and doing. Keep track to help me stay accountable, even if it is only to myself, but I can't guarantee that will happen. It'd be nice, but we'll see how it goes. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >Damn, now I'm hungry. Wonder what's in the house to munch on.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" >Have a nice weekend everyone who is or isn't reading. </span> </span></div>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-6010155881584600242011-08-22T00:48:00.003-04:002011-08-22T00:59:38.073-04:00Back to Journaling<span class="Apple-style-span" >I want to get back to doing this. I think it really helps when I do it. I don't know if it'll be daily, but at least a couple of times a week.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >
<br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >I won't be doing any yoga tonight as I had hoped. Unfortunately I was hit with a migraine shortly before Jason left for work. It really sucks when that happens!</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >
<br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >I did have a juice as my dinner. While I'm sure the shot (or 2, I didn't measure) of pineapple vodka negated the healthiness of the juice, it certainly helped me relax a little. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >
<br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >I have been doing miserably with eating lately. Too much crap. Jason bought me a juicer and I try to use it at least once a day. It'd be nice to get into the habit of using it twice, but we'll see how it goes. Part of that is the cost of the produce. Food is getting more expensive and for reasons that only the corporate people know of, the crappy food costs less than the good for you stuff. What is that about anyway?</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >
<br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >While I am going to continue to weigh myself, I'm going to try to start basing my weight loss more on how my clothes fit. My current goal is go one shirt size down. If I go one shirt size down, it'll be that much easier to find something that fits comfortably. I could wear it now, but it'd be too tight for my personal comfort. I spend all day dealing with different kinds of stress and difficulties, I don't have the tolerance for clothes that aren't comfortable to wear. If it's tight or pulls in a weird way, I'm not wearing it, that simple. It's why I don't wear heals. Makeup just takes too much effort, the same with doing my hair in any way aside from a simple braid or pony tail.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >
<br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >Well that is all for right now. I'm hoping that shortly we'll be able to have the tower fixed so that I can edit all the photos I've taken this summer. It died unexpectedly about 2 weeks ago. I think it's the power source, at least I hope that it is. That's a very easy fix to make.</span></div>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-39236585226215359042011-06-13T23:33:00.003-04:002011-06-13T23:35:49.276-04:00In A Rut<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">That seems to be the story of my life as of late. A rut. My weight is the same. Admittedly, I haven't been doing anything to try and change it. I'm stress eating (meaning more sweets, even *gasp* chocolate) but the calories even out through the day because nothing else sounds good. I eat the sweets after the kids go to bed so I don't have to share with the moochers. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">I know what I need to do. The question now becomes what am I willing to do? What is it that I actually WANT to do? </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Those will be the questions into perpetuity I think.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-45789970111867380012011-04-04T22:27:00.003-04:002011-04-04T22:40:39.544-04:003 weeks have gone by...<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Wow, that's a lot of time. Let me see, I wasn't feeling well, weighed myself at 285, then the following week was AF (aunt flo to all those who don't speak web) and I was 290, and then last week was crazy with Kati here and I was back to about 288-289. It's nice to know that while I retain water with AF, once she's gone (yep, AF is a SHE all the way) the weight goes back to normal. </span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Haven't had sword practice in 3 weeks either. Cancelled for weather, then Kati was here and were super busy that day (family pics in the am then dinner with my mom that afternoon/evening) and then once again cancel for the rain. I'm hoping that in the next couple of days (probably Wed considering tomorrow is supposed to be mid 40's and rainy) get out and do some staff work. Planning on yoga tonight. </span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">I've also been doing more housework, deep cleaned the office and dining room this weekend. The living room is getting done next. I have more work to do with the office, but it is MUCH better than it was! The kids go to SIL's again on the 15th. Jason and I had planned on taking a couple of days to really clean, I'm hoping that I'll have enough done before then so we don't have to spend both days doing the cleaning.</span> <span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Trying to remember breakfast, even if it's just grabbing a Slim Fast shortly after I wake up. It seems that my days are more successful when I have something first thing like that. I got into a lazy pattern of doing frozen meals, and I am trying to get back out of that. Home made frozen is OK, store bought not so much. At least I know exactly what I put into the home made ones.</span> <span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">I have some sewing to do. I need to get working on my renn garb. I finally narrowed down my "lineage" so I can go from there. </span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Been doing all right with the ChaCha. I try to do it at night after the kids go to bed. I'm doing MyLot pretty frequently too. Posting there is like posting on message boards. I am close to "grounding" myself from facebook, it's just so distracting! Damn games! I set goals of work for 15 minutes and then I can facebook for 15 minutes. It works sometimes, which is better than never I guess. Last year with ChaCha I earned less than $50! That is ridiculous. I need to get on the ball with that one.</span> <span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Will be going shopping on Sunday to stock up again, I'll be making sure to get stuff for more salads. They are really filling and pretty good for me, I'd like to be able to stay in that habit. We are also ordering from Angel Food Ministries to stock our freezer later this month. Affordable, variety, and the quality is pretty damn good. Jason and I said that once we got a new freezer for the basement we'd start doing that again, so I'm going back to doing it this month. Anything to help us stay stocked up AND eating at home as much as possible. </span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">I suppose that is all for now. I'll update with a new weigh in on Thursday. Have a good week everyone.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-2651822897124225732011-03-10T11:35:00.003-05:002011-03-10T11:44:44.631-05:00Once a Week<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">To my thinking, once a week is better than not at all. Right now, that's my goal, once a week. Pop in with my weight. Think about my eating. Comment on my exercising (or lack thereof) and go on my merry way. It would be nice to say that as I get more into this that I'll post more. I don't know if that will be the case or not. We'll have to wait and see.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Did you know that clothes add 4 pounds? Well, 3.8 to be exact. Wowee! How do I know this? I weighed myself in just my underwear this morning (I know, pretty picture right?) and then I put on my jeans and shirt. It added 3.8 pounds!! </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">WOOHOO I did it!!! I'm below 290!!!! I'm at 286.2 to be exact! WOOHOO!!!!! My next mini goal is to get below 285. I'm going in 5 pound blocks.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">I am definately giving that weight loss success to more conscious eating this past week. I bought fruit and veggie baskets so they are out and easily accessable to everyone. I reorganized the fridge so that my cool veggies can be gotten to very easily, which makes putting together a salad much easier. I'm trying to make sure that I grab a Slim Fast every morning because I know I put off eating until later in the day, which isn't so good for my metabolism.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">There hasn't been any true exercise. I have tried to get up and DO more, so that may have helped too. My goal for the next week is to do some real exercise. Of coarse, that's yoga. If I can get a hold of the group leader, that may also include some quarter staff fighting. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">I need to find out from him who he has in mind to train me and then I'll try to get a hold of them directly. I am thinking that if nothing else, I'll show up to practice and see where it goes from there. This is something that I want to do, want to follow through with. Next year it'll be something I bring the kids with me to. This year, it's for while the kids are gone (not the practice, but the actual fairs) and so I can build up technique and a wardrobe. It takes a lot to make a wardrobe for all the kids and myself! At least with me making the stuff, I can just take it in as I lose weight, I won't need to buy new stuff.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-57383733573611158272011-03-03T10:21:00.003-05:002011-03-03T10:31:47.672-05:00Slacker<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Yeah, I know. Wait, I'm NOT a slacker, I'm just doing all the stuff I usually do in a day. I DO need to do this as well. And the exercise part. And eating better. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Lately A Migraine (yes, it deserves the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">capitalization</span>) has been plaguing my very existence. I want it to not come back. It's Recurring. Every evening about the time Izzy gets off the bus. I take Excedrin to try to ward it off, drink a soda (because of the caffine). Unfortunately, no such luck. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Prescription meds have a 2 fold negative. Firstly, they are very expensive and I have to pay for all of my meds out of pocket. Second, they have side effects that aren't worth the relief to me. The biggest one being the sleepiness, the inability to stay awake. Quickly followed by nausea, which I've already got. UGH. Michigan recently passed a medical marijuana law. I am going to talk to my doc, when I see her in a couple of weeks, about that possibility. I know I can't keep going on like this. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Because of being in miserable pain, I have been unable to cook as I should be. Sadly, so much produce has gone to waste because I haven't used it. Ordering in pizza has become a norm. And TV dinners. Reverting back to bad bad unhealthy ways. It took me so long to get things going good, and they were getting better. Here I am stuck back at the beginning. So after this, no more. That means for Jason too. He'll grump and moan, and then I'll tell him what to make and we'll go from there. I may have to get more tolerant of him cooking eggs, but whatever needs to be done to get the crap out of the house.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">I weighed myself this morning and I was 290 even. It was nice to see that while I'm not doing anything to promote my healthiness my body isn't retaliating by gaining 10 pounds. Now to get that number below that mark and KEEP it there. It's my first mini goal and I'm almost there! Eventually I'd like to see that first number be a 1. I'm thinking maybe in a year or two. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">So here it goes for today.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Breakfast</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">1 slim fast can</span><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#000099;">1 bottle of water</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-426267254336330692011-02-12T00:18:00.002-05:002011-02-12T00:23:32.381-05:00Friday<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">Started the day out with a Slim Fast while I was at Jayda's tutoring. That was about 10:30. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">Lunch was Arby's. I had the Rueben combo. I had the medium size, but that was to get the bigger drink more than the fries. Cup of cheddar for the fries that I shared with Jayda. I had unsweetened tea to drink. That was about 1.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">Dinner was Papa John's Thin Crust BBQ Chicken Bacon Pizza. The thin crust sucks. I had 3 slices. That was at about 7:45.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">I'm hungry right now, and it's about 12:20, so I'm going to have a Slim Fast before I hop into the shower.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">Let's see if I can start getting a few snacks in there during the day, to help keep everything on an even keel. I was really feeling hungry when I had lunch and then again when I finally had dinner. No organized exercise today. I spent most of my day up and moving around. </span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-15051846500001095132011-02-10T10:01:00.005-05:002011-02-12T00:18:32.876-05:00Starting Fresh<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">I know it's Thursday and not Monday. Honestly, Thursday is my slow morning around here so probably the best one to start out with a weigh in. So let's pretend it's Monday and go from there, shall we?</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">Weight was 291.4. I'm glad to see it not much closer to that dreaded 300 mark, but it is definately not where I want it to be. My long term goal is to get about 100 of that to disappear. Honestly, I'd be happy to get it so that first number is a 1. I know that I will always be curvy and soft and round. I know I'll always shop at Lane Bryant to find good fitting pants and bras and panties. I'll never be seen as the "ideal". I'm ok with all of that. This isn't a journey just of weight loss. It's a journey of self acceptance too. Stoking my own ego, improving my self perception, allowing how I feel to show through in how I look. Thankfully, Jason is on board. Those things are hard to accomplish when your loved one doesn't want change of any kind.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">My food for the day goes as follows (I'll update through the day)</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">Breakfast at 9:30 - 2 english muffins with 2 tbsp (the serving size) of honey nut cream cheese between them</span><br /><span style="color:#003300;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">Lunch was at 3:30. big salad and a Little Debbie Valentine's snack cake. I need to get better at eating more through the day. I know that will help how I feel over all.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">dinner was at 8. Baked Spaghetti and 2 pieces of whole wheat garlic toast. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">snack of ice cream cone</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">middle of the night I had a slim fast shake</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">Over all the day wasn't too bad food wise. Water was 3-4 16.9 oz bottles. 1 can of Cherry 7 Up.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">You'll often see my day start with a Slim Fast shake. While I appreciate that they are meant to be a diet tool in the extreme sense (the Slim Fast diet is only 1000 calories a day, that's ridiculously too few), I use it as a meal replacement for when I'm on the go. It's very convenient to grab a can, a bottle of water, and the book I'm reading while I go to whatever appointment is scheduled for that morning.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">You'll also see the Special K snack bars quite a bit. I like them. I like the fact that I can get flavors that aren't chocolate. They are easy to grab when I'm feeling a bit hungry.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">I'm trying to add more fruits and veggies. I'm hoping a regular thing will be a big salad for lunch. My salads consist of cucumber, spinach, lettuce, green pepper, shredded carrot, mushroom, grape tomatoes, grilled chicken, blue cheese dressing, and a small handful of croutons. The dressing isn't low fat. You won't find me eating most low fat foods. I feel that full fat is better for you than a bunch of chemicals and added salt/sugar. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">My exercise for today consists of:</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">yoga 20 minutes</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">I'm hoping that as time goes on, that increases in time, but also variety. I have some aerobic options available, pilates, and I want to get the Just Dance for the wii. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">While I will be mindful of how much I'm eating, I am not going to focus on specific calorie count. That is very hard to do especially considering most of my food is home made from a variety of ingredients. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">The twins alphabet video is over and amazingly my floor isn't TOO taken over with toys, so I'm off to yoga. Prayers and blessings and have a great day everyone.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-86255959840254394522011-02-06T23:02:00.004-05:002011-02-06T23:04:43.210-05:00Sickness<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">Did you know that being sick doesn't work too well with trying to do things healthy? It's true! This past week, between the sickness (everyone but Izzy and Jack got it) and the snow (TWO snow days in a row, that never happens around here! *because we're so used to it, not because we never get snow*) my whole week was thrown out of whack. So tomorrow I'll start fresh. I'll go looking for the before pictures. Do the whole scale thing. All of it. I promise. I need to do this. For myself. For my kids. For my husband. </span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-88674185838542586792011-01-29T21:32:00.003-05:002011-01-29T22:14:59.789-05:00Food Journal and Exercise Too.<span style="color:#006600;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">Starting this next week I'm going to use this blog to keep track of food and exercise. I've read that it can help maintain the focus for <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">weight loss</span> and a healthier life style. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I've started drinking Slim Fast pretty regularly. It really isn't the Slim Fast diet, which is only 1000 calories a day (that's ridiculously low!). I use it as a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">supplement</span>. I've noticed that I don't eat as often as I should through the day. It gets to be too much sometimes to worry about making something to eat along with everything else going on.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I got rid of easy prep foods last year at the New Year. Jason wasn't pleased. It took some time to get used to for both of us. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">There are days when I get out of bed, get dressed and head out the door. Those days are pretty frequent actually. I wouldn't grab anything to eat, just a bottle of water that I may or may not drink. The Slim Fast is easy to grab (I'm using the cans, I get a big 30 pack of them at Sam's) and I can drink it while I'm waiting. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I am also eating a lot of the Special K snack bars. I like them. I found some that aren't chocolate, which was a task to do. They are good for a quick snack, especially when I know I should eat, but I just don't feel like it. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I'll weigh myself on Monday and use that as my start. I don't know how often I'll check it. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I was thinking today that I love to be comfortable. However, I'm very unlikely to change if I'm always comfortable, so maybe a little discomfort is the way to go. Especially in my clothing choices. I have plenty of clothes. I have gotten very lax in how I dress, preferring to always be in very loose yoga pants and t-shirts. My favorite bras are the ones where the wires have come out. I think comfort has transitioned into lazy. If a shirt is even a little bit snug I toss it for one that isn't. It limits what I am willing to wear.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I want to eat more veggies and fruits. I need to get them into my daily diet. I'm hoping by keeping track of what I'm eating every day I can see places to fit them in. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">Exercise right now is yoga, 20 minutes of it, once in a blue moon. I want to change that to 3-4 times a week. And not just yoga, but I'll work my way to that. I need to be moving more. I think yoga with it's emphasis on stretching and strengthening will be a good foundation to work from. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I don't have a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">definite</span> end number in mind. I feel that I'll know when I get there. I do know it's somewhere in the 100 pounds to lose range. Maybe a little more, maybe a little less. I know I want my weight to start with a 1. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I've heard that a person should make small goals and when they reach them, get a treat or reward of some kind. I have no idea what a good reward would be, let alone a good small goal. Do I set it on a time limit? Or just an amount lost? What if I'm exercising and doing the right stuff and I'm not losing but my clothes are fitting better? How does that fit in? </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I know I can't judge this entire journey by a number on the scale. It has to be more than that. It has to be about how I'm feeling about myself, my confidence, my sense of self worth, my sexiness. Yes, I consider my sexiness a factor. The number going down on the scale is only a part of it. My ultimate goal is all around healthiness, not skinniness. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="color:#006600;">I'll post starting pictures on Monday. They were taken a little while ago, but I look the same, I weigh the same, so they'll work. I'm thinking every 3 months posting new ones. Hopefully there will be a progressive difference</span>. </span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-59699606542100559592010-09-12T23:42:00.001-04:002010-09-13T00:27:50.547-04:00Monday Is Weigh In<span style="font-family:verdana;">So I'm getting back on the ball. It's part of this whole organization thing I'm doing. I can't expect change to just happen. I need to do it myself. I'm looking at my life and pointing at things that need change in some way and just doing it. I don't like doing it. I'm not enjoying doing it. But I am doing it. Maybe it will become habit. Maybe it won't. Jason supports the change so it's all good as far as I can tell.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I shoved myself through 18 of 20 minutes of a yoga workout tonight. I really do need some more stretching. And my fat gets in the way. That's rather humbling.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I've been working on a book with my therapist about adults that were abused as children. She is having me read it and then journal how I'm feeling about what it is saying. It's a crappy exercise that I hate. It's eye opening as well. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I kind of feel like things are finally coming together, making more sense, working themselves out. Financially we are still in a shitty place, but that isn't going to change in the immediate future. We have things that we are doing to help change it, but they aren't overnight fixes. Eventually, one day, I'll be able to go back to work. That will help us when we are old and our children are grown and gone. For the moment, we'll make things work now. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">My ex is a moron. I need to figure out how to accept that. I know he wouldn't appreciate me laughing at him, but I think I need to start doing that more and stat allowing him to upset me less. He's not worth the energy or the time</span>.Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-50757691843257641522010-05-02T16:29:00.002-04:002010-05-02T16:54:48.481-04:00Diet and Book Vent<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">I got the Syndrome X book today. It makes some valid points, but it is seriously DULL reading. I skipped ahead to the recipe and diet part. The book advocates a basically Atkin's almost all protein little to no carb diet. I have a problem with this.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">My problem, to start off with, is two-fold. The first is that any diet that is built on the extreme removal of one kind of food is a failure. Many people, me being one of them, can't live with that much restriction on them. It's not like I'm allergic to peanuts and I have to remove them all or I'll die. In many instances, there is a middle ground, it's just a matter of finding it. The 2nd is that when anyone goes off of one of these extreme diets, they gain all the weight back. Well that is a problem simply because it goes back to the first point. I might get a bit healthier while on the extreme diet, but as soon as I were to deviate from it, I'd start gaining weight again. What the hell??</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">I have been trying very hard to eat more protein. I've also been trying to reduce the amount of simple carbs I eat. Having more fresh produce with meals too. Eating even more home made foods. Eating less when I eat. Eating more frequently so that I don't overeat when I eat. Exercising a lot more. Not sitting in front of the computer all day. Actually going out of the house, even with all of the kids, and walking around and doing things. These are all very good habits to have I think. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">The book doesn't like medical interventions as treatment. It wants me to take a lot of "nutritional" supplements, which may or may not really make a difference. The book's authors states that it worked for them. Call me a cynic, but I don't have any reason to actually believe that statement. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">I was hoping this book would have more in the recipe dept and less on the extreme diet end. I was hoping for detailed lists of lower carb veggies AND fruits. Better cuts of meat choices. Allowable carb lists, like what grain for breads and pastas and the like. Unfortunately, this book does not meet those expectations and I'm upset that I wasted a credit from PaperBackSwap for it. I would have checked it out of the library but it was unavailable.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">So now I'm feeling like I'm still not doing things righ. I'm not going to the extreme, and I refuse to go there. Does that mean that I'm going to be stuck as a fat person? Sometimes, I am surprised by my fat. I feel like a thin person on the inside. Then I look in the mirror and it's one of those "Oh yeah" kind of moments. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">Am I expecting miracles? Well, no. I know better. I know the best way to lose weight and keep it off is gradually. I know the best way to make diet changes is to find the middle ground. I know that in order for the weight loss to happen and for the diet changes to make a real difference I need to exercise regularly. While I know all of these things, that doesn't change how I feel. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">I want to feel beautiful and sexy for my husband. I don't. I ask myself all the time (and him too) how he can find a fat blob like me attractive. I hate the attitude I have for myself. I know it surrounds everything I do. I know it affects my thoughts about my daughters. I don't want them to have that. I don't want them to have unhealthy thoughts about themselves and their food and their relationships because of an insecurity that I gave to them.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">I know that changes like this are hard. I've always said that if it's easy, then odds are it's really not worth it. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">I think that is the end of my rant. Tomorrow will hold a recipe or some other kind of post. My goal for May is to post 4-5 times a week on this and my other blog. We'll see how that goes.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-71506228306553467992010-04-19T20:33:00.004-04:002010-04-19T21:00:01.496-04:00Went Back to the Doc Last Week<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">I was told that I have Insulin Resistance. I had no idea what that meant. I knew it was along the lines of diabetes, but it wasn't diabetes, at least not yet. I was told to add more exercise, change my diet, and to start taking Metformin. Okey dokey. After sitting around for a week (well not literally) trying to figure out what it is, I asked a mom on a message board that I belong to that is a doctor. She really helped me understand it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">The basics of it is this; Insulin is like an escort to the glucose in your body. Glucose is too big to go through barriers in cells to be used for fuel so it needs an escort. Insulin resistence means that my body doesn't recognize the insulin that I have so the glucose isn't being used correctly. Because of this, my body makes more glucose to compensate. Without the glucose, the cells die and don't make energy which leads to me feeling run down, have horrible mood changes, and slowly and steadily gaining weight. I didn't have my cholesterol checked, and odds seem that it would probably be high. If that were the case, I would have Metabolic Disease (also known as Syndrome X). The metformin turns off some of the glucose making so that my body has to use what is there. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">What is going on is like a vicious little circle. Being overweight increases the insulin resistence and the high cholesterol. Because of the insulin resistance, I keep gaining weight. The hope is that with diet changes, exercise, and the medication that I'll start to lose weight and break the cycle.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">Does that make sense to you? It does to me, at least now. I have a book coming that focuses on the diet aspect of IR. I'm hoping that I will find it helpful. It has nutrtion info and some recipes. I'll be looking for more recipes as well. I know I need to add more fruits and veggies in my diet, I just need to figure out which ones are more insulin friendly. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">Last week I took the kids out to the nature trails twice and we did a 3 mile walk. We took a seat out of the middle of the van and brought the wagon for Izzy and the twins went in the stroller. I bought some new walking shoes and I'm hoping that when we go out again this week they will give more support than my other shoes. I want to do the wii Active 2-3 times this week after the kids go to bed on nights that Jason works. I would really love to get to the gym 2-3 times this week as well. Just so I can do the 1 hour cardio/weight circuit. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">I am glad to have an answer about all of this. It certainly does explain that moodiness that has really been bothering me more and more lately. I'm finding that I have more energy as well, at least when I eat better. Now I need to figure out the eating part. And make sure I follow through with the exercise part. Change is hard, but I know that these new habits will be so worth it. I'm tired of feeling like a skinny girl caught in a fat girl's body. It always shocks me when I look in the mirror simply because I don't recognize the fat person looking back at me. I know that I will never be super model thing. Aside from the fact that I have given birth to 7 children, am in my 30's, and only barely 5'6" tall, I am broad shouldered and wide hipped. I'm OK with that. I would like to look sleeker, curvy in a good much firmer way. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">I can say that this past week I've noticed that when I don't eat so well, when I overload on carbs, I feel like crap. I need to find the happy medium and don't go to the all protien extreme. I found out that just when walking with the kids I get a low blood sugar feeling if I haven't had enough to eat of the right things. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">I know the diet changes won't sit well with Jason. He understands that it is what is better for me, however it will mean changes for him too. I won't cook seperate meals for everyone. What is for dinner is what is for dinner, that simple. I will change how I serve myself that food, but it will all be what is OK for me to eat, which will be healthy for the rest of the family too. The other morning Jason was frustrated because there wasn't anything that he could just pop in the microwave and eat. Our cupboards, fridge and freezer are packed with food but he doesn't know how to cook any of it, so to him there was nothing to eat. When I did make something, he didn't really care for it because it was too different for him. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">I love him. Sometimes I think he is so stuck in his habits that he reacts to change like a little kid when you take away their favorite toy. He'll come around and do it this way, but it won't be without complaint, that I know. As it is, I am going to have to schedule an "appointment" for me to go to the gym so that he will stay awake so that I can go. He knows it's what I need, but again it's that change aspect. I know it's what I need and I'm having a hard time adapting to it, I can only imagine what it feels like for him.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#006600;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">Once I have the book, I am going to start the food journal thing again. I want to get a food scale so I can see how much I am eating.</span> </span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-66272106301270658222010-04-09T11:18:00.003-04:002010-04-09T11:20:17.241-04:00Looking Over the Food Journal<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">I need to eat more fruits and veggies. Tomorrow I'm hoping to do some grocery shopping, or Sunday at the latest. I need to start adding 2 or 3 servings of fruit and veggies in each day. I know that potatoes don't count as a veggie. I wonder though, do sweet potatoes? I'll need to ask.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-65305456154044384132010-04-08T23:45:00.000-04:002010-04-09T11:17:50.211-04:00Thursday Food<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">9:30 AM Salt and Pepper chips and dip, handful of chips, less than 2 tbsp dip (serving size)</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">12:30 PM 1/2 banana</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">1:30 PM Ham sandwich on buttermilk bread with home made butter and brown mustard for taste</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">4 PM 7 Cheddar Pretzel Combos, they were Izzy's and I was trying to give them to him and he fed them to me instead</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">8 PM Cheeseburger with 2 slices CoJack cheese on buttered (butter was home made) English muffin with a little brown mustard for tasted with baked potato wedges and sour cream (less than 2 tbsp)</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;">6 16.9 oz bottles of water</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000066;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000066;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">Woke up about 8:30-9 and went to bed at 1 AM.</span> </span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-49632906316276595932010-04-07T23:45:00.002-04:002010-04-08T09:52:48.063-04:00Wednesday Food<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">10 AM Blueberry bagel with cream cheese and banana</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">1 PM 2 left over chicken strips (home made)</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">6 PM 2 handfuls Salt and Pepper Kettle chips with Dean's French Onion Dip for taste</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">7:30 PM Baked ham sandwich made with home made buttermilk bread, home made butter, and spicy mustard</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">10 PM Baked ham sandwich same as above</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">11:30 PM small handful Kettle Corn Popcorn and Banana</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">7 16.9 oz bottles of water through the day</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">The home made bread is dense, yet has air bubbles and is about the size of a hand from palm to finger tip in length and from pinky to thumb in width. The butter was put on the bread first as flavor, then the mustard, then the ham.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">The serving size of the chip dip is 2 tbsp and I didn't go over that, if anything I used less than that.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#003300;">The handful of popcorn was put in to a bowl and I didn't eat all of it. I kept getting the kernals stuck in my teeth and that frustrated me. I also got one caught in the back of my throat.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-55184741886050744252010-04-07T01:05:00.004-04:002010-04-08T09:41:04.536-04:00Tuesday Food<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">Let me just start out by saying that doing this each night is annoying as all get out. Anyway.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">11 AM Small bowl of leftover pasta bake and 2 pieces of cheesy garlic bread</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">3:30 PM Medium fry, double cheeseburger, 12 oz vanilla shake (or maybe it was 10? I know Mickey D's recently cut their shake size down)</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">8 PM Tempura battered chicken strip</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">9 PM 4 Tempura battered chicken strips, small handful sweet potato wedges with a little sour cream for texture/flavor</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">5 16.9 oz bottles of water through the day</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">I'm wondering if I should include the recipes for the food? The Mickey D's was because I met someone from out of town there. I want to add that I drink NO soda. I gave it up mid-January of this year when I got my tongue pierced. Shortly after that I stopped breast feeding the twins. I also started exercising regularly, I joined a gym even. On average I was going 2-3 times a week for an hour each time. I was also cutting down on my portion sizes, as well as increasing the amount of protien I ate and reducing the carbs. I gained over 10 pounds and put on a couple of inches around the waist. This seems counter intuitive to me. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">We hardly eat out anymore. It's too cost prohibitive. It's cheaper for us to eat at home, it's also healthier. We don't eat canned fruits. We don't eat canned veggies. Almost all of our fruit is fresh. More and more of our veggies are fresh. If they aren't fresh, they are frozen. A lot of the meals I make are made from scratch. We are planting an extensive veggie garden this year. I plan on making my own pasta sauce, hopefully enough to get us through until next year. I am going to learn the art of canning in the late summer/early fall. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#006600;">During all of these health improvements, I keep feeling more run down. My hands now are constantly red and very very dry from washing dishes. I started breaking out in hives from our dish soap, so I had to switch to a hypoallergenic one. I'm getting migraines 2-3 times a week. Before I would only get them when it was super hot (85 or higher) and a very high humidity. My joints, especially my knees, fingers, and wrists hurt. My feet and hands are slightly swollen. I have dry skin even though all I drink is water. On occasion I'll have a cup of unsweetened ice tea with a little lemon in it. I want to know why I feel like crap even though I'm doing things right?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#006600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#006600;">Wednesday Edit: I didn't eat the cheeseburger from the McDonald's meal. I found it stashed in the diaper bag today and Katy ate it.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-48880650749063895232010-04-05T23:45:00.000-04:002010-04-06T02:29:33.085-04:00Monday's Food<span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">1 PM 2 unheated hot dogs</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">1:30 PM 1 bowl Velveeta multi grain rotini mac n cheese with sliced hot dogs</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">8 PM 3 slices cheesy garlic bread (1 before, 2 with dinner)</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"> 1 bowl pasta bake</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">Throughout the day 5 16.9 oz bottles of water</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#000099;">It certainly doesn't seem like a lot, does it? I got the beginnings of a migraine shortly after dinner tonight. I was able to hold off the major bury my head in the sand cut it off already headache with Excedrin (generic) and Tylenol Severe Sinus (generic). I still have the ache in my head and eyes, but it's much more tolerable. Note to self, taking a daytime sinus med within 4 hours of bedtime isn't the greatest idea in the world, however it DID help with the pain so it seems the delayed bedtime is worth it. This post is dated for Monday, however it's actually almost 2:30 on Tuesday morning. Let's see if I can do better with getting that breakfast in there. Or at least a meal that would be during "breakfast time".</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-43781289116343817292010-04-05T12:49:00.004-04:002010-04-05T12:57:51.898-04:00Food Journal<span style="color:#000099;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">My doc wants me to keep a food journal for the week before I go in for my follow up appointment. She tested me for diabetes and thyroid. So there will be a lot of editing of posts as I keep track of what I eat each day for the next week. I don't want to make a bunch of individual posts for each time. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">It's almost 1 in the afternoon and I still haven't eaten breakfast, or a meal that would be considered breakfast. I got up at about 9, layed about until 9:30. When Jason works I have been getting up earlier than that. I was feeling hungry at around 10:30 or 11 however I just didn't get to it. One thing (well more like person) or another needed my attention. I think I'll go figure out something to eat. I'd like a chicken quesedilla, but sadly we are out of sour cream.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I'm making butter right now so I can have fresh butter when I make buttermilk bread later today. I'm going to try it out with my mixer and see how it goes. Jenn told me that I should be able to do everything in the mixer, which is nice because I always end up over kneading the bread and adding too much flour because I don't like the stickiness. I wanted a nice soft doughy bread for the ham mom sent home yesterday.</span></span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-58837604088364854082010-03-21T19:39:00.002-04:002010-03-21T19:49:21.994-04:00Back on the Horse.<span style="font-family:verdana;">That horse sure sucks, let me tell you. I exercised twice this past week. The first time was with the wii and it kicked my ass! I was swearing at it while the "coach" was telling me I was going to slow. There was NO WAY I was able to speed it up! UGH! Then it got stuck while I was trying to do the bicep curls. So all that exercise didn't count toward my goals one bit! </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">The 2nd time I went to the gym. I walked on the treadmill. I had put in for an hour. At 40 minutes I was TOAST. It was a 2 1/2 mile pace. When I looked at the display, it told me I was very close to 500 calories burned and 2 miles walked. So I kept going until I hit that 500 calories, which was just 10 minutes later. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">My eating has gone downhill this week. Thursday was a WEIRD day for me. I woke up at about 10:30 in the morning and I finally went to bed on Friday night (technically Saturday morning) at 1:30. Geez louise! I really hope that my insomnia isn't making a comeback! That totally threw me off and I'm still recouping the loss. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">Tomorrow we are taking the kids to the Meijer gardens for a homeschool outing. Katie will be joining us with her 2 boys. I figure I can get a decent amount of walking in while we are there. Jason has tomorrow evening off, which is always nice. Tuesday Jayden has her testing, and Wed James has an eye appt. I think I'll be able to fit the gym in on Wed afternoon, which is another day that Jason has off, at least I'm hoping that I will. I'm going to keep focusing on the walking on the treadmill for right now. When the numbers on the scale really start to go down and stay that way, I'll add the weights back in. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I'm going to try to log my food daily. And what was going on at the time that I ate. I have a feeling I eat a lot when I'm bored, which totally explains where Izzy gets that from. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I haven't been doing so great with the housekeeping or the crafting. I am just feeling wrung out by the end of the day and I have no motivation to do it. I need to get on top of that.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-65991965473296364732010-03-14T16:44:00.003-04:002010-03-14T17:05:56.698-04:00Journey of...<span style="font-family:verdana;">I'm not really sure honestly. Jason said self-exploration. I guess that would be right. Teaching myself to be accountable. Maybe. I'm kind of confused on it. It just seemed like a good idea, the "right" idea, to have this blog and focus it on me. I guess we'll see how it goes. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">To start off with, I'm trying to be healthier. A healthier weight. Better eating habits. Consistent exercise. It's a good place to start I think. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">Then there's the whole outlook on life thing. I often wonder if a person can be depressed and feel content at the same time. How I can be so angry and bothered by so much while at the same time I'm feeling content and happy. It really has me confused. I'd like to figure out what is going on with that.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I'll be weighing myself on Mondays. I know a lot of people would look at that in shock, after all the potential for a big gain on Monday after a weekend of relaxing is there for most people. My weekends aren't much different than my weekdays. The kids often have school still on Saturday or Sunday because we homeschool and the kids will often take a day in the middle of the week to screw around or focus on something else, like getting their chores done. Jason works most weekends because of his job. I think a weigh in is a great way to start a week off. </span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I'll post my goals for my weight loss. What I want my exercise goals to be. How I'm eating. I'm going to try to post daily what I've eaten. I want to try to be more accountable that way so I know how I can make changes, see the areas I need to improve. Right now, I'm trying to have more protien and fewer carbs in my daily diet. I'm using smaller plates and eating smaller portions. Because I eat a lot of home made meals, I won't be doing any strict calorie counting.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I want to document my progress on my craft projects. I have materials for all kinds of projects that never get done. Things that could be gifts. Things that we could use ourselves. Things that would be nice touches to our home. I want to use a majority of the materials with what I already have. If I need something more to complete it then that is fine. However the project needs to use predominantly what is already here in this house.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">Cleaning and organizing are on the list. Honestly, I'm lazy. I hate to clean. I'm anal in my organizing. Because I'm anal, I don't start because I hate to stop part of the way through. I end up making a bigger mess while trying to organize than there was to begin with. I need to teach myself to take smaller steps. That even a little bit done is much better than doing nothing. That goes with the crafting as well.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I need to keep my goals realistic and attainable and then do the follow through. That means actually doing instead of just hoping it will happen. I won't be surprised if I end up bitching a lot about it all. It will suck. I know that at the end of it, once the goal is attained, it will be worth it, but I'm lazy and the effort will suck.</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8112225972124456391.post-2503066716764307682010-03-13T11:40:00.001-05:002010-03-13T11:42:41.464-05:00Day 2 of More Protien and Fewer Carbs.<span style="font-family:verdana;">UGH. Last night I wanted a snack. We'd had dinner already but I knew I was hungry. Water wasn't making it go away. What I REALLY wanted was an ice cream sandwich. I had shrimp with a little cocktail sauce. It got rid of the hunger. I didn't end up eating the ice cream. Yesterday for breakfast I had lowfat vanilla yogurt and granola (with almonds in it). For a snack I had a handful of green grapes. For lunch I had a baked chicken (pre packaged grilled chicken strips. When the kitchen is more put together, I'll make up a batch of my own to keep in the fridge) and cheese quesedilla on a taco size tortilla. With WIC we can get whole grain tortilla shells, so I'm going to try to figure out what ones we can get and pick some of those up. For dinner I made Arizona Pork Stew. It's cut up pork loin and fresh mushrooms cooked in a bit of EVOO. Add a jar of chunky salsa (when my garden comes in this summer, I'm going to can my own salsa) and a can of mild enchilada sauce. Serve over rice and add a little shredded cheese on top.<br /><br />So I'm wondering, should I have more dairy in my diet? Like drinking a small cup of skim milk once a day or something like that? I don't often eat cereal. The only dairy I'm getting each day is whatever cheese that I eat.<br /><br />My goal for next week is some form of "organized" exercise every day (starting on Monday). My plan is to go to the gym on Mon, Wed, & Fri. The other days I am planning on using the wii Active. I'm going to weigh myself on Monday and then not step on the scale again until the following Monday. I had read an article that people are more likely to lose weight if they weigh themselves every day. Do you think that is true?</span>Serial Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09013841366329800463noreply@blogger.com0